Friday, November 18, 2005
i am tired... i jus came back from visiting my dad at the hospital... i dunno y the camp allowed us to bookout todae... it came as a surprise to everyone... well... when i heard that we can bookout after dinner todae i was happy... first thing that came to my mind was to visit my dad... i went there straight after camp on a cab... i din even go home to bathe... and i think i'm going to get heat rash soon... i can feel the pricks on my back... i've been wearing an unwashed gillie suit for three daes... i'm currently undergoing sniper training and i have to wear this stupid suit...
when i saw my dad jus now i felt sad... i saw him there on the bed... looking so weak and with all the stuff poking into him... i saw his eyes... i could see that he was in pain... the doc gave him morphine to stop the pain if it was too painful... i asked him if he was ok... and when he replied me it seems that it was painful to even talk... i've never seen my father so weak before...
yesterdae i had a medical appointment for my pilot thing... so i had to book out at 8am to collect my referal letter... and den go to NUH for the appointment at 4.30pm... my course commander gave me an off-pass till 12noon... and i had to book in at 12noon and then he will let me go out again.... i was like??? wad e?? its very stupid planning... the time needed to go out and come back and den go back to NUH which is in the west from my camp which is in the east is like so long...y mus i travel here and there? den i asked him... "can i use that period of time to visit my dad in hospital?" and guess wad he said? i cant believe he said that... because he to me was a nice guy... and he said... "wow... so u have very good planning huh... out the whole dae..." i replied saying that this is unforseen... i was quite pissed with him by his comment... like i wan my dad to be hospitalised?
so he said "nv mind u go see ur dad after u collect ur letter... when u see him u call me..." so i went to the hospital after collecting my letter.... my dad was still in the operating theater.... so i called to inform him... and that ass said..."so wad u wan me to do?" i said i wanted to wait for my dad to come out... and he said ok... when i see my dad call him.... den when my dad came out i jus call to say he was out... and it was ard 2pm.... i reached the hospital at ard 10.30am... the first thing the ass said was "y so long? u dun have the intention of coming back to camp isit?" i told him my dad jus came out of the operating theater... he said ?"nvm... u come back u come and find me... " i was damn pissed with him by now... i was reallie boiling... i hung up the phone... i reallie wanted to jus shoot off..."fuck u... u understand?" i controlled... i was reallie very angry... i have nv been so pissed like that for a very long time.... here i am in hospital... waiting for my dad to come out of the ops room... and mind u its not a small op... its considered a major op... my dad has been in the ops room since 8am and he jus came out at 2pm... and here u say this shit? fuck u... u think i planned for this?? u think i bluff that i visit my dad?? u think the op took so long was wad i wanted?? u think i'm in the mood for ur unreasonable fucked up comments???
i have nv been so pissed before since ages... i dun get angry easily... but this asshole... i was reallie at the brink.... if he give me another comment i will reallie give him a good one... i dun give a shit if ur my course commander...
my dad is in the high dependency ward now... i reallie hope that he can recover soon... this weekend i will be booking in and on tis coming sat i will be flying off... so this weekend will be the last weekend for me to do my stuff... initally planned to play tennis with my friends and maybe catch a the new potter flick... now i will be at the hospital for this weekend... i dun mind not playing tennis... i dun mind not watching the new potter flick... jus wan my dad to recover asap...
i feel like asking if i can dun fly this sat... my dad's results are not out yet and i dun wan to fly off not knowing my dad's results.... and i wan to help my mom takecare of my father... its been quite tiring for her this week...
i'm tired now... i need some sleep...
:posted by rippy @ 10:43 PM
Sunday, November 13, 2005
i think i kinda miss studying... haha... after looking at the pic i took while studying during the my poly exams... i think studying is quite nice... i used to think that it sucks... and i was so bored of it tt i even made this pic while studying... haha... now think of it maybe it not tt sucky after all... hmm... i wanna study..... *sighs... =|
the specs nerd studying during poly exams....
haha... i was so sian of studying tt i even drew a figure...
my study esential items...
my growth photos....
me when i was younger...
me when i was older....
me when i was much older
me now......
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hahaa.... lols... =p
:posted by rippy @ 3:38 PM
