Thursday, July 10, 2003
saw 6~!! dogs on my wae home todae.. wow.. haha.. i reallie luv dogs manz.. rite frm wen i was young.. but no mom's seal of approval.. so still no dog... haizz.... *dying for a dog..
was in e atrium todae... den saw tis familar guy..so i wen nearer to check it out.. ehz?~! it was my classmate~! it was my PJC classmate... he was my classmate wen i was in JC1.. he also same case as me... kanna retained... but he choosed to stay on and redo his JC1... i choosed to leave to join sumother stuff...(which in e end is biotech in np...) haiz... sad to hear tt he was retained again... he din make it to JC2... he had all Os but e sch din advance him... haiz... so now he is in np... haiz.. its reallie sad to retain lor.. sumore is retain again... 2x... =(
i hav been thru it so i know tt retaining is an experience tt u wldnt wan to hav... summore going thru it 2x... e feeling is reallie sad...
i remembered wen i was told i was retained... i was like blank lor.. i was jus... (no words can reallie describe e feeling.. its sadness plus lostness...plus abit of.... ya.. trying to take in e fact tt u actuallie had to repeat another yr...) i almost teared... actuallie my eyes were abit watery.. but jus tt i reallie held back... i wen home... i jus walked home... i din know wad to do... i din know how to explain to my parents.. i din even know how to break e news to them... i was reallie down... e feelin reallie... i jus isolated myself... i off my hp n din ans my house phone... i jus lyed on my bed n tried to think... y? wad happened? wad am i gonna do? tt was one of e reallie down pts of my life....
but thinking back... i think i was quite strong... i was able to get up n decide on wad was i gonna do nex... although it took sum time.. but i knew i was those get up n try again... but i decided not to redo my JC1 n came to poly... my parents were reallie disappointed in me wen i told them e news.. they noticed sumthing was wrng.. i had to tell them... haiz.. i din dare to talk to them during tt period... i felt i reallie dissapointed them... haiz.. i knw tt my dad hav expections of me.. jus tt he din reallie show it... but i know... he tot i cld enter acjc.. cus my pts met their criteria... so he was kinda excited... but i din.. i got into pj instead... den now i had to retain... so i reallie dissapointed him...
i knew frm den on tt i hav lost their confidence... until now.. they r still afraid i wld repeat e same mistakes.. weneva they c me slack they wld tok abt last time n all... i wld b like so~~..sumtimes i wld jus get kinda pissed... cus once doesnt mean agian rite?... haiz.. i reallie lost their confidence...
:posted by rippy @ 9:05 PM
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
wah seh.. todae is e 3rd dae of sch.. had CYC's lecture.. diaoz sia he... reallie lame lor.. dunno wad "where can u find mangos??" i forgot e ans liaoz... but it was a reallie lame ans... den e "Wad do women hav n men dun?" ans: e lady's card by UOB *if i nt wrng... i was like??.... how lame can u go? haha.. but i hav a lame one too... picked tis up on tv... Wad do u get wen u cross a cholate bar wif a sheep??... ans~! CHocolate Baahhh~~! haha.. diaoz~
after tt had microbio lect... okie lar.. still not too bad... i actuallie watched e whole video tt e lecturer showed us... wow`! hah.. nan de nan de~ =)
hmm.. joined e adventure seekers todae... haha.. new cca for me =) actuallie i had tot of joining long time ago.. bt jus din go do it... den todae they had a recruitment drive at e atrium so i jus joined lor... =) i guess it wld b fun..they having a camp at pulau ubin... cant wait for e first meeting.. =)
a new cca for me means tt i hav to manage my time more wisely liaoz.. haha.. dunno.. sumtimes i jus think i am quite matured in terms of thinking.. i can reallie tok alot of cock.. n make ppls laugh n all... but wen comes to reallie thinking... i think i am very mature lor.. dunno if tts a gd thing.. too mature also not gd...
:posted by rippy @ 10:17 PM
Monday, July 07, 2003
wah seh.. todae first dae of sch sia... dotz.. abit e sian lor... sleep reallie late last nite... den had to get up like 6am??~!?? wt... diaoz.... den got e dunno wad SARS tok... okie lor... i think tt lecturer still kinda nice.. she looks like a fun lecturer to me... so lets keep my fingers crossed... =)
den had like 3 or 4 hrs break lor.. wen to buy note n makan alahmin... prata was great.. although nt tt filling... =) den had CYC for lecture... oh manz... gotta c him again lor.. i was like... ??~!? haha.. nevertheless he still can consider not bad a lecuturer la... =) den later got tis cell culture lect... e cher showed us some video... which i jus totally turned off lor... i jus like lye down there... closed my eyes n rest... cus kinda tired too... haiz.. no interest in e video...
after sch still wen to meet up wif my grp... cus visiting one of my grp calsualty.. we made a card for her.. kinda nice lar.. not too bad.. mai hiam buay pai~ =) den had dinner n stuff... in e end came hm at ard 10plus.. all in all kinda bz dae...
tt probably sums up my dae 1 of tis term.. tmls a new dae.. a short one too... thinking....
:posted by rippy @ 11:43 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2003
wah seh... i am super e bz lor.. all e gl n freshie stuff.. i hav been gg out almost every single dae~! i am feelin a bit shag nw.. later still gtg out meet freshies... den tml also gtg visit my calsualty... aiyoz... my hp is also ringing n beeping all e time... *i wonder how high e bill will be manz... pls.. jus dun exceed a hundred bucks... if not my parents wld kill me manz...
but its worth all e training n hp beeping.... e freshies r a buch of nice ppls.. =) they r young n bubbly.. hhaa.. maybe its cus they jus started out their poly life.. =) but they r reallie coolz.. hope our angel grp wld still stick together n we can hav more future outings =)
:posted by rippy @ 2:16 PM
