Saturday, November 06, 2004
arhz.. so tired.. so shagged... feel like i jus shagged?... oppz.. haha.. shag is supposed to be a bad word?? haha.. i was told though... shag means to have sex? haha... lols.. okie.. i'm shagalistically tired... haha.. so tired until my brain came up with shagalistically... diao~.. is there tis word?
haiz.. raced todae... sianz.. din have enough of boats... in the end had to sail a different class.. sian... at the prize giving presentation although i came in 2nd.. i wasnt at all feeling exhilarated... jus walk take n go... din even pose for a pic... until the presenter said... take photo... reluctanly took a pic... sian... haiz... okie.. i'm feeling quite tired now...
yest toked to her on the phone till like 2am.. even though i knew i had to wake up earlie todae i din reallie tot much... jus wanted to tok to her... she said her attachment on fri was nice.. yup.. erm.. haha.. the nite before i actuallie prayed for her tt she'll have a nice fri.. cus she wasnt feeling happie for her attachment.. yup.. so i jus prayed for her.. haha.. dun reallie know how to go about the correct way praying... jus pray.. lols.. i also dun usually pray for myself... diao.. tis time actuallie did it for her... yup.. but i'm happie tt it worked out well for her on fri.. =)
she said she read ppls blog n stuff... n she asked if i had one... i was thinking.... diao.. intially i said i had... den after throughout the conversation i said nope.. i din have.. she wanted to know my blog add.. i was like... thinking... haha... i will die left right centre if she saw my blog~!! if she read my entries abt her... i will reallie... arrh~!! haha.. dunno where to hide my face lor... mus follow her ostrich theory... put my head into the sand le.. wah... if she reallie finds out my blog... n she asks me abt the entries.. i think... arr.. i dunno... maybe i will jus deny its my blog? diaoz.. but got my profile n photo~!!! arrr... maybe i will admit to her lor... jus say.. ya.... i like u... wo xi huan ni... diao~ den find a hole n live forever... haha.. yup.. i think i will do tt~!
ya.. no choice ma.. if she found out the blog.. jus gotta tell her le...
:posted by rippy @ 8:00 PM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
hmm.. jus out of the shower... wen out for dinner todae after my fyp... i was trying to call my sis the for the half of this afternoon... cant seem to get her on her hp... diaoz.. i was like thinking.. where was she? how she gonna settle her dinner? diaoz.. in the end during dinner i decided to call home... maybe she at home... diaoz.. she was... ya.. lucky.. whole dae din pick up my call.. sms her also din reply..
hmm.. i'm now the guardian... lols.. jus signed two consent forms for her todae... the other time even typed a letter out for her n signed it for her.. cus she wanted to pon sch.. diaoz.. haha... my sis...
hmm.. wen out with her n her friend todae for dinner.. waited for like an hour for the xiao jie to arrive.. diao.. i was standing at the mrt station all the while.. until i received a msg saying she will be late.. which is like 45mins le... diao.. but i wasnt angry at all.. ya.. i was like okie.. wait...
din reallie tok much todae.. dunno y.. i jus felt... den i smsed my friend.. but i think din sent out... cus i asked my friend onlie jus now.. n din receive... so i tot.. okie.. shit.. maybe i send out wrongly ba... but if i send out wrongly... there's a chance i send to her who was jus there buying icecream... diao.. hope i din send to her... cus it was abt her herself...
walking along orchard with her n her friend todae after dinner.. i tot to myself.. okie.. i dun like her.. cus i felt tt i like her.. i hope i'm not falling for her again... okie... i admit i like her before.. i admit i fallen for her before... maybe u could say tt i was in love with her... but i jus tot... okie... maybe its jus nth.. i dun think she feels nething... while i was in uk.. i din think of her... okie.. erm.. tts a lie... i admit.. i did... while i was on the train travelling from state to state... sometimes she would come to my mind... i tot of all the happie moments we had together... tennis.. cycling.. working in hagen daz.. camps.. tas... movies.. jus spending time together with her... the time i celebrate her b'dae... the time which i actuallie wen to look for materials to make her the little model for her b'dae.. which until todae.. i still dunno if she likes it... n i also dunno if she knows i made everything from scratch... even the box n string i wen to alot of shops jus to get the one tt i think would suit the whole thing... in the end settled for a box n string from kino..
ya.. the little model which i gave her... i spend like a few times trying out n figuring out how to make it... even though it looks ez to make... but it wasnt tt easy... cus i had to make sure there was no cracks...
okie.. so i did think of her in the uk... wrote it down in my dairy which i brought with me for all my trips on the train.. sat in the train.. with a table in front of me... i wrote down my feelings...
when i came back from uk.. i saw her in sch.. n i pretended not to see her.. i even saw her while gg to sentosa.. n i again pretended not to see her... i dunno y i did tt... in sch the other time while playing tabletennis... i saw her playing badmintion... n i jus pretended not to see her... my friend said its because i like her.. tts y i would pretend not to see her... he said... y mus u avoid her when u say u dun like her?? obviously u still like her...
i reallie feel happie n reallie comfortable with her.. there's no need for me to like think of stuff to do jus to impress her or smth.. its jus it... jus me.. i dun even mind wearing shorts n sandals to orchard with her.. n i wouldn't mind it if she did the same.. the jokes.. laughter.. fun... its jus it.. it jus feels natural... no false fronts... i enjoy each n every moment spend with her..
sometimes i reallie feel like jus saying it out... but ofcus me... being so humji n all... i hold back... i din wan to rush nething... i dun wan to make a wrong decision... i dun wan her to make a wrong decision too... i dunno if she likes me.. i dunno nething... but i know i will treat her nicest.. er.. haha.. if there's such a word... i will surely reserve the best for her...
:posted by rippy @ 1:21 AM
Monday, November 01, 2004
2.51am le.. i'm still wide wake... haiz.. i can't seem to be able to sleep... toked to couple of my friends jus now... now my tennis bud is online... long time din see him liaoz.. he used to ask me out for tennis every week.. but now he has a girlfriend liaoz.. actuallie found out from his friendster.. haha.. was wondering.. hmm.. where has tis guy gone? haha.. yuan lai got gf le... i remember each time after our tennis sessions we would sit around n tok abt his ns.. he would complain how boring it is to be in camp without a gal... diao... n he would keep asking me if i was attached already... n how... hav i confessed.. and he would keep giving all his ideas.. n say how humji i was... diao.. haha.. but we're good friends.. he knows almost everything abt me.. including how humji i am ofcus... now tt he has got a girlfriend.. we haven met up for a game yet.. =| hmm.. yup.. newaes.. i wish him all the best for him n his gal.. =)
hmm.. haha.. he jus suggested tt we play tennis together one dae.. with him n his gal.. haha...
hmm.. wow... so late le... i wonder if i can get up on time.. but i cant get to sleep... hai..
:posted by rippy @ 2:51 AM
